Books

Whenever I finish reading a book, I typically get one of two feelings. I either feel warm like I've made a new best friend, or I feel lost like I've been promised a soul mate that's not in stock anymore. But like today, sometimes a rare third comes into play. I feel empty. Like all of my innards have been scooped out, and now there's room for all sorts of things like kangaroos or toaster ovens. As if the story was my own and my tale, my life, has ended with the last turn of the page. I do not weep, I do not mourn. I am a temporary shadow, waiting for the loving touch of sleep to fluff mass back into my body.

End The Hate

There are many men in my life that are amazing people. I hold them very dearly to me.
If anyone tried to hurt one of my men,

I will fucking take them down. 

Brainwave Music

So my brain is pulling bits of songs into one big thing right now that's pretty much this:

On my own, I'm gonna be wounded. Oh, you're gonna be my bruise. Haven't you heard the word how I want you?  Isn't it madness he wont be mine? What I'm feeling now has no easy explanation, reason plays no part. I don't know why I can't think of anything I would rather do than be wasting my time on mountains with you. But there are dreams that cannot be. Without me, his world would go on turning. There is no future, there is no past. I love him, but only on my own. Now life has killed the dream I dream. No sleep in Heaven or Bethlehem. Its the bitch of living. You're totally fucked. Turn around and face your fate: an eternity of this before your eyes. Heaven help my heart.

musicals live in my brain like cancer.

Save the Music 2010 Highlights

OOTB - Trashin The Camp

(totally amazing)

Chamber - In The Heights (Part 1)

(kick ass)

Chamber - In The Heights (Part 2)

(super kick ass)

Lady in purple with receding hair line dancing 

(soooo funny)

(DAAAANNNNCEEEEE!!!!!!!!)

(ewwwwwww. i sound like crap with a sore throat. sorry)

...

i'm so tired.
i'm so down.
but i won't sleep.
i refuse to frown.

bruises and wounds.

crash and burn

will it happen

can i have my turn

i tripped
i fell.
but i
i hope all can well.