Push me around.
Judge me.
Refuse to acknowledge me.
Break my heart.
Just tell me why first.
If your reason is good,
Then I can cope.
I have a piece of truth to carry me.
Knowing why is my closure for everything nasty.
My dad got HPV.
My dad gave it to my mom.
My mom got cancer.
The cancer was caught late,
And was ultimatly untreatable.
It killed her.
And I know that.
That is a comfort that helps me deal.
Things that I don't have a logical reason for?
They eat away at my soul.
It takes the tiniest nibble everyday.
But slowly, it makes a huge gaping hole.
Right in the very heart of me.
But Jennifer, isn't ignorance bliss?
No.
Ignorance is hell.
Knowledge is bliss.
And don't keep a reason from me.
Ever.
Even if you think the reason will break me.
Because it wont hurt me,
It will only make me stronger.
So if you know something,
Lemme know, kays?
I need to know more to get beyond my history.
It does not do to dwell on the past and forget to live.
I'll admit, I modified a Dumbledore quote for that, but it rings true.
Help me escape my haunting memories.
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