My 100th Post!!!!

In honor of my 100th post, I think I'll re-update one of my most "famous?" posts: Our fucked up love lives.

F and G ended up getting back together and are now fully happy with each other, but F still has commitment issues...

E and J broke up.

E and J got back together again.

E and J broke up again and stayed friends.

C still really liked B, so G dared them to ask out B.

B said yes.

B pissed off C's dad accidentally and C's dad talked to B's mom.

B broke up with C the next day.

C thought the whole situation was rather hilarious, but B was worried that C was crushed, so B began to avoid C at all costs, which amused C even more.

C and B eventually went right back to normal soon afterwards.

A fell for O.

A found out that O did not like her and was, in fact, aerosexual. (into planes)

A was very very upset.

A began to like E on and off, but was too afraid to admit their feelings because of C and E's history together.

C liked G for three days, but only because of....the time of the month.

C soon afterwards began to like P, but didn't really realize it.

At C's going away party, Q got to know G a bit better, and began to become a little obsessed over G (whilst still having the hots for P and a few others.)

C realized that they liked P.

(A is still wrestling with feelings about E through all of this still)

R got closer to S via skype while visiting with A and C and they began to go out.

C was set up with U, and U attacked her in the movie theater and C is now fully afraid of U and hates both classes that they share.

P began to have hots for I and J, while still being fully happy with T.

H and E also apparently have hots for I and J.

R is worried that S likes V.

A finally admits to her love for E.

C realized that they loved someone very very much and is now dedicated to being with them in either friendship or romance as closely as possible despite the distance.

See, guys? We're a year older and still completely fucked up in the heads. hahaha. will we ever learn? XD

Nerdfighter notes!

Put an apple on your head.

Jump six times

Go fast and hard

Because that's awesome

And so are you

-?

take this book

treat it well

do a summersault

play the baggpipes

stay awesome.

Find your great perhaps.

-?

we fight for awesome

we fight against suck

we are nerdfighters

so be awesome

dont suck.

be a nerdfighter.

Do the impossible

See the invisible

Row, row fight the powah!

Touch the untouchable

Break the unbreakable

Row, row fight the powah!

-A nerdfightah!

Do you know what today is?

Today is awesome.

Because you found a nerdfighter note.
No go kickass!

You beautiful stallion!

-A nerdfighter

Iron man is awesome

because he's a nerdfighter

so be awesome

be a nerdfighter

be Iron man

watch the clouds

-?

I'm a nerdfighter

And so are you

Be proud

Its kind of like

a boxing chess player

which is awesome.

-A nerdfigher

Buy books

make notes

fight crime

while juggling

Because that's pretty awesome

And so are you

-A nerdfighter

hahahaha. dont nerdfighters rock ass?

Quote from the Exploratorium

DUCKY DUCKY DUCKY I FOUND IT!

Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep, really to sleep. Try as much as possible to be wholly alive, with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell, and when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough.

- William Saroyan

Sims

Today, I made a sims game where I was married to Tom Felton. I went back and deleted it because I realized there was no point in fantasizing over him, someone I've never met and will never meet. Especially when I've met and fallen for some one as perfect as you. I considered making a version of me and you, but I decided against it. Why try to imitate something on a screen that is so much better in real life? Why do I need to simulate something, when I can experience it? Why love pixels, when you can love a person?

Don't get me wrong, the fact still remains that Tom Felton is still a fucking hot sex god with an amazing body and I am still wildly attracted to him. But that's all it is, a sexual attraction. I love you. And that's stronger than any lust. I'm not only drawn in by your appearance, I'm pulled in by who you are. And that makes you the sexiest of all. And that's not a lust either. Its a want to show how much I love you without words, because words cannot encompass what I feel.

God, how silly I must sound.

I can't sleep.

It's two in the morning, but I'm not tired at all.

I was two hours ago, but as I laid in bed waiting for sleep, you popped into my head.

I began to ponder how wonderful and amazing you are.

And how much I'd like to be with you right now.

And I woke right up.

I didn't even realize that I should be asleep until a few minutes ago.

And I've been in bed for two hours.

This could become a problem.

But if it does, it will be the sweetest problem I've ever had.

Sitting here typing this, I cannot think of words to describe the feeling that's washing over me right now.

Love doesn't even feel strong enough.

I'm reminded of a Dr. Seuss quote right now: "You know that you're in love when you can't sleep, because reality is better than your dreams."

This encompasses me perfectly at the moment. Clearly.

You have no idea how strongly I am wishing to be with you

So I can see your perfect eyes

And your amazing smile

And hear your delicious voice.

I feel like I'm acting like Ron in the 6th book when he gets put under a love potion.

But I don't feel stupid like he seemed.

All of these feeling are perfectly justified.

I've always wanted to be in a song, feel it, experience it.

I feel like I am right now.

My heart feels light and happy just like the song The Way I Am.

I feel like I'm living the spirit of that song.

You're slowly making all of my hopes and desires come true.

You are so amazing and you don't even know it.

I think that

you should come online more so we can talk. because i feel kinda weird checking every day to see if you're there when i already know you're not going to be.

The perfect boy

Once, i made a list of what my dream boy would be. it looks like this:

• dark hair
• dark eyes
• tall
• muscular, but not too much
• nice hands
• musical/artistic in someway
• caring
• thoughtful
• sweet
• awkward in the cute kind of way
• intelligent
• healthy respect for harry potter
• understanding
• respectful
• playful
• funny
• totally alright with my quirks
• honest
• trustworthy
• kind

and the list goes on.

and what i realized is that, you fit every critera on my list.

and then some.

you're not my dream guy.

your better than him.

in ways i cannot express or fully understand.

hogwarts might not be real, but magic is.

because you, my friend, are truly magical.

Not the same.

Today, I went to the store.

I bought some pot stickers, pineapple orange mango juice, and some flat pretzels.

I sat down in my room, turned on Hey There Delilah, and began to consume my purchases.

I thought it would fill part of the hole in my heart.

It only made it bigger.

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I miss you guys!!

ROFLMAOCAKES!

Today, my little sister came home with her progress report, crying. My mom asked her if she would please tell her what was wrong, so my little sister shows my mom her progress report and says,"I got an F in sex". I've never laughed so hard in my life. MLI

The Jar is kinda irrelevant now. I've found a truer love.

I get a feeling when ever I'm around you.

It's not a feeling of being at ease.

It's a feeling of pure peace.

Total relaxation

Like the rest of the world is melting away.

You don't blind me.

You enhance my vision.

I see more of the world in your presence.

The rainbow seems dull

Compared to what you show me.

When I am with you,

You are a mirror.

I learn about myself.

I learn to love everything about me,

Because you give me the strength to.

You are my muse.

You don't only inspire art around yourself though.

I've solved math problems better with your help.

You make me better

At making the world a better place.

We trust each other like diaries.

Each one knowing the secrets of the other.

The highest trust I can imagine.

I wouldn't trust you with my life,

I'd trust you with the world.

I thought I knew love before, but this is a whole new world.

I don't have a need to kiss you and whisper sweet things.

I only have a desire to be with you,

Either as your girlfriend or as your friend.

I'm content with either, as long as I'm near you.

(and i know you think love poems are creepy, so i'll make it into a song one of these days so you'll actually appreciate it. i know i've got a long time before you realize who you are.)

The Cliffs of Insanity.

Just a girl.

Nothing extraordinary.

Nothing spectacular.

Just average.

But one day,

This girl was lifted to the top of the world.

She was as happier than she thought possible

And felt she could do anything.

But one day, even though she wasn't in Sparta,

She was kicked ferociously from her perch

Above the world.

She hit the ground hard.

Shattered into million pieces of bone,

She wondered if she would ever heal.

As time went on, the girl found she was slowly becoming fixed.

She found a mountain nearby and began to climb.

At first it was very very hard for the girl.

She didn't believe she would ever reach the top, despite her efforts.

A long while later,

She realized she was had reached the top.

She was at the top and hadn't noticed she had been there for a few days.

She was over come with joy at her victory.

This mountain wasn't as tall as her previous,

But it was still a pleasant home to her.

She had a beautiful view and everything was pieceful.

But the mountain had a cliff.

She was always very cautious of the steep edge.

Hardly ever came close to it by choice.

It typically wasn't a problem.

But she still always feared it.

Slowly, she feared it less and less.

Even allowed her self to get a little closer to to its edge.

She reached a point of full acceptance of the cliff,

But she was always the slightest bit wary.

Like a skilled carpenter being cautious with his saw.

No fear, just caution.

But one night in her sleep,

Her dreams made her get closer to the cliff.

She awoke with her ankles on the edge, feet dangling,

And very much fightened.

That day she spent as far away from the cliff as she could.

But again, she awoke with nothing between her feet and the bottom of the cliff

But air.

After a few more nights of waking up like this,

She decided to not go to sleep.

She stayed up distracting herself with flowers and books and her friends.

But noon the next day she was exhausted, so she took a nap.

She awoke right where she fell asleep:

Safe and away from the cliff.

From then on, she didn't wake up on the cliff's edge.

It didn't concern the girl anymore.

She never even thought about it.

But one day, she was reminded.

What she would see in her dreams as she inched towards danger,

Flashed through her mind.

She was shaken, but didn't even consider having the dream again.

That night, she had the dream.

She awoke with her knees on the edge, and her calfs dangling.

More scared than before, she wondered what was happening to her.

The next morning she discovered that her entire legs her hanging.

The next, her hips.

The next, her stomach.

The next, her chest.

The next, her head, with only her arms keeping her from falling.

The next morning, she was completely on the cliff,

With her hands grippings two rocks that jutted out.

She pulled her stomach back onto the mountain,

But she couldn't get her hips and legs up.

She fell asleep like that, half way hanging.

She found the next morning, that she was even farther down

Than she had been the previous morn.

Too afraid to climb up,

And certain she would die if she let go,

She stayed there clinging to the face of the cliff,

Terrified.

Every morning she would awake to being farther down.

Soon she wont be able to see the edge of the cliff.

Only a sheet of rock.

She is beginning to be able to see the ground, lined with jagged rocks.

Everyday, she cries, she wishes for her mountain top, and clings to cliff,

Horriffied to discover what her dreams bring next.

(Sorry guys, i know this one's crappy.)

Nightmares

For the past bit of time,

I've been going to bad happy

Yet waking up crying.

But Last night

Went to bed crying

Woke up just fine.

Now to decide:

Which one's worse?

I think the answer is:

Neither.

They both are horrid.

Goddamn nightmares.

01. You’re currently confused about someone’s feelings for you.
02. You have been in a serious relationship before.
03. You own an iPod of some sort.
04. You do not like your sibling’s girlfriend/boyfriend.
05. You drink too much alcohol.
06. You have been to the Olive Garden.
07. You have taken medicine of some sort this week.
08. It is really cold in your house right now.
09. You are extremely dependent on others.
10. You do not like to express your feelings in front of others.
11. You ate a lot of food today.
12. It doesn’t take much for you to cry.
13. People consider you a sappy sort of person.
14. Someone in your family is rich.
15. You have been to Disney World or Disneyland before.
16. You hate when people constantly talk about themselves.
17. You are a good listener, but you hate complainers.
18. Someone has called you for a serious medical emergency before.
19. You have had a serious surgery.
20. Your house has a spare bedroom.
21. Your house is old.
22. You have at least one cousin under the age of three.
23. You have never held a baby before.
24. You can’t handle toddlers.
25. You have a painting in your room.
26. You have been to Canada.
27. You have been to Mexico.
28. You love cherry flavored lollipops.
29. You celebrate Easter.
30. You observe Lent.
31. You are Catholic.
32. You do not believe in God.
33. Religion is not important to you.
34. You want to have a small family one day.
35. You would rather have more sons than daughters.
36. You have more aunts than uncles.
37. You hate being too cold.
38. You currently are way more tan than everyone else.
39. You wear shoes in your house.
40. Your parents are clean freaks.
41. You are more messy than clean.
42. You are currently angry at someone.
43. Patience is so not a virtue to you.
44. Your desk is extremely clean.
45. Your bed sheets are either blue, green, black, or white.
46. When you hear “black & white” it reminds you of Katy Perry’s ‘Hot n Cold’ song.
47. You have no clue what that song is.
48. You think rap artists are completely pathetic.
49. You are glad George Bush is out of office.
50. Politics are boring to you.
51. You take a vitamin daily.
52. You feel like you are sick often.
53. You hate throwing up.
54. You think it’s gross when people set food down on their desk at school with no napkin.
55. You also find it gross that people sit on top of desks.
56. You are now cringing at the thought of someone’s food where someone’s ass was.
57. You love getting bubble baths.
58. You do not like chocolate at all.
59. You are allergic to nuts.
60. You have been stung by a bee before.
61. You have been to the emergency room before for something.
62. One of your parents is 50 or older.
63. You are the baby of your immediate family.
64. You hate broccoli.
65. Cooked carrots are good, though.
66. You go on tumblr too much.
67. You are really comfortable right now.
68. You like witty t-shirts.
69. You are a major fan of underground bands.
70. You have been on an airplane before.
71. You are not afraid of heights.
72. You consider yourself paranoid.
73. You have had a panic attack before.
74. The thought of being old and alone bothers you.
75. You would choose the elderly over children.
76. You feel like you’re living in the wrong decade.
77. You have smoked weed before.
78. You think it’s way too cold outside right now.
79. You love the thought of sleeping in tomorrow morning.
80. You would rather go to bed early and get up early.
81. You feel like the early bird catches the worm.
82. You are a big breakfast eater.
83. You are currently suffering from the common cold.
84. You are craving something salty.
85. You have been in a car today.
86. There is something plugged in near you.
87. You have heard of the TV show “Private Practice.”
88. You do not like medical television shows.
89. You prefer horror to comedies.
90. You adore Leo & Kate.
91. You think high-waisted pants look good.
92. You hate cheesy movies.
93. You enjoy camping out.
94. Bugs don’t bother you.
95. You do well in school without trying.
96. You are extremely jealous of someone currently.
97. You feel like you have changed a lot from 08-09.
98. You like energy drinks.
99. You like italics.
100. You know the entire script of Mean Girls.

Part of Your World

I am in your heart,

But I am not in your world.

We all pretend that we share a world.

But we don't anymore.

I miss you.

I miss you with all my heart.

Because I am in a different world now.

I don't belong with you anymore.

You have what used to be our world.

I'm still trying to find my new world.

I don't want to find a new world.

I want to be back in your world.

But I can't be.

I'm gone now.

The music has played its last note.

The sun has set.

The fire logs are just ash now,

Ash that's being blown away from the hearth.

I'm gone.

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Srs Bsns

Seriously, doesn't he know that his jokes like that kill me? He must. There's not a chance he doesn't know that all the flirting chips at my heart.

Why does he not acknowledge that the affairs of my heart is some serious buisness?