Family is such an amazing thing. I wore the tank top. The tank top. from that day. It started to bother me a bit, but my family carried me through it. I love them so much for being so awesome and helping me overcome anything!
I love you two soo much!! <3
5.31.2010
5.26.2010
Indie-pendence Day
I would like to declare today as Ginny Indie-pendence Day.
It will serve as a reminder to me. A reminder to be light-hearted and free as an actual hipster, to always be myself even if it means that I have to be alternative to do so, and that I don't have to be with someone to be happy.
:)
It will serve as a reminder to me. A reminder to be light-hearted and free as an actual hipster, to always be myself even if it means that I have to be alternative to do so, and that I don't have to be with someone to be happy.
:)
5.16.2010
marathon
Lately, I've been really proud of myself for doing better. For having more emotional health. For really starting to take care of myself. But now I'm just starting to realized how little I've actually done and how much farther I have to go. The voice in my head is saying:
"You stood up? Oh, good for you. Go run the marathon, bitch."
I'm trying to calm down and be nice to myself, but to be honest, I'm terrified and being mean to myself is simply easier. But I really want to choose what is right over what is easy. Just like Cedric and Harry. With my personality though, I'm either nice to myself and get nothing done or I'm horrid to myself but convince myself that its helping and I'm making progress by emotionally torturing myself. Sometimes I accidentally fall into this perfectly balanced emotionally, accomplish everything, go-getter version of myself but I get so tired so quickly because if I stop doing that for one second to rest, I can't pick it back up. And I suppose that would be alright if I could bounce back and forth between being a lard-ass and a maniac to stay balanced and accomplished without killing myself, but I can't. I don't know how to provoke myself into getting anything done.
I'm young and need guidance, but I'm too old and pigheaded to seek or accept it.
"You stood up? Oh, good for you. Go run the marathon, bitch."
I'm trying to calm down and be nice to myself, but to be honest, I'm terrified and being mean to myself is simply easier. But I really want to choose what is right over what is easy. Just like Cedric and Harry. With my personality though, I'm either nice to myself and get nothing done or I'm horrid to myself but convince myself that its helping and I'm making progress by emotionally torturing myself. Sometimes I accidentally fall into this perfectly balanced emotionally, accomplish everything, go-getter version of myself but I get so tired so quickly because if I stop doing that for one second to rest, I can't pick it back up. And I suppose that would be alright if I could bounce back and forth between being a lard-ass and a maniac to stay balanced and accomplished without killing myself, but I can't. I don't know how to provoke myself into getting anything done.
I'm young and need guidance, but I'm too old and pigheaded to seek or accept it.
5.12.2010
well...
it looks like my whole world for the next year is totally fucked. thanks universe, up yours too.
5.04.2010
Too Much To Ask
Is it too much to ask to be a human with a normal body to compensate for my abnormal life?
Is it too much to ask for a parent with one iota of responsibility?
Is it too much to ask for all of my friends to live on the same continent?
Is it too much to ask to excel at something?
I'd like to stop worrying about my head and my back and start worrying more about the world around me.
I'd like to not have a dad who locks me out and then falls asleep but has a job instead.
I'd like to actually be there for my friends physically, not just emailing them.
I'd like to be remembered for doing something beautiful.
I'd like....I'd like.....I'd like.
What am I going to do about it?
Is it too much to ask for a parent with one iota of responsibility?
Is it too much to ask for all of my friends to live on the same continent?
Is it too much to ask to excel at something?
I'd like to stop worrying about my head and my back and start worrying more about the world around me.
I'd like to not have a dad who locks me out and then falls asleep but has a job instead.
I'd like to actually be there for my friends physically, not just emailing them.
I'd like to be remembered for doing something beautiful.
I'd like....I'd like.....I'd like.
What am I going to do about it?
5.02.2010
lulz
Dad: Did you know that you can get an STD from a loofa?
Me: Wouldn't it be an LTD then?
Dad: ....................I think it depends on what you do with the loofa.
brb. dying.
okay. i'm done laughing now.
its these moments that help me believe i can make it through the next two years.
Me: Wouldn't it be an LTD then?
Dad: ....................I think it depends on what you do with the loofa.
brb. dying.
okay. i'm done laughing now.
its these moments that help me believe i can make it through the next two years.
5.01.2010
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