I am...

I am...disgusted by myself.

I am...amazed that my last sentence from an email I sent on Dec. 21st is still true.

I am...horrified by this.

I am...upset that I can't make it untrue.

I am...frustrated that this is out of my control.

I am...pissed at my subconscience for this.

I am...still surprised at the turn of events.

I am...worried that it will get in the way later.

I am...so mentally messed up.